Hey my wonderful followers!
So I’ve been a bit distant lately and truth be told there’s a lot going on……Nothing particularly great and it’s made my time to blog very limited.
I am exhausted! Physically and emotionally. I can’t lie about it as I always said I would blog with honesty.
Being a single working mum to 3 kids is hard work, and I’m just trying to find myself within it all.
I believe I’ve reached that place in my adult life where I’m actually checking myself and trying to work out “What makes me happy and Who am i?”
I’ve never been alone or had the oppertunity to grow independantly as a individual as I’ve been a mother since I was 16. Feel free to read my journey as a teenage mum here if you haven’t read yet. Please don’t get me wrong I’m not complaining…I love my kids….but I’ve never really figured out who I am aside from them?
A couple weeks ago I had a weekend to myself and I literally raved from Friday to Sunday and it was amazing. I had so much fun and I had to question..”Is this how the other side live?” Now I don’t think I could maintain that type of lifestyle for very long with children and a job nor do I think I would want to.. but it did make me wonder……*What lifestyle should I be providing myself with, and how can I achieve it with kids?
I even considered taking a break away without the kids for some much needed “me time.” I got as close as booking the train tickets to Edinburgh until my anxiety kicked in and I realised I would be alone. So there‘s something I learnt about myself…… “I’m scared to be alone and i hate change” This is not a good thing in fact it’s something I feel is really restricting me and most likely preventing me from gaining a good life balance.
So guys, in a nutshell that’s what has happened to Mommyrosebuds, she’s in the process of re-collaborating herself to be a better mother by working on her true self.
If any parents have experienced something similar please do comment and let me know how this process went for you and what things you got up to. Or even if your not a parent but just know a bit about finding yourself I would love to hear from you too.
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