Rosebud diaries #1
I’m tired….so tired I don’t know what to do with myself, I haven’t slept more then 6 hours in 2 days and I’m officially burnt out. This has been going on for a month now! 😥
I would like to say it’s just down to the kids waking me up but that would be a bare faced lie.
It’s me…it’s all me and if I carry on like this I won’t make it…
For years I’ve had a weird pattern where I lay in bed and think all through the night. My mind never sleeps…Infact the reason I gained all my qualifications was due to one of my Sleepless nights where I had some genius idea and ran with it. Seriously!
So it has its good points and it’s bad….
The reason I’m stuggling is because I’m extremely sleep deprived; now, I am due to take an exam next week and I can barely focus to study… “It’s a shame my genius idea of becoming a Lactation Consultant and studying 1 month after a C-section delivery of my exclusively breastfed 3rd child along with a hyperactive verging ADHD toddler didn’t ring any alarm bells at the time”
Like, for real! I completed a 1 year course to become a breastfeeding specialist in 10 weeks! As well as finishing 8 essays back to back for a course in Maternity and peadiatric support.
(Im a Flipping nut job! I graduated from university back in 2010 as a Dental Techician, I don’t actually need to study!)
I have a problem…I just don’t know what it is….
People congratulate me for all that I have achieved so young, but never see the danger in all that I do….
This time, I am completly fried and praying for a better day when I can sleep peacefully and stop taking courses.
The 2 youngest kids are not easy especially Amzah who is 2 and a half and has some form of development challenges, so far it mainly appears to be speech delay and sensory issues, with a few others that I will mention in a different post (When we see a paediatrician we will know more)
I honestly think that right now I’m having a tough time Balancing sleep and wake life and it’s gone way too far!
I don’t usually ask of this but please keep me in your thoughts and prayers while I muddle through revision, kids and the ever pending exam. I could do with a bit of good energy and love flowing my way 😘
Thanks for taking the time to read my depressing post! It’s that mom life type of post today.
Look out for more entries from the #Rosebuddiaries
Let me know what you mommas do when your exhausted, how do you get a good balance to keep functioning?
Until next time